Being 20-something!

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
You start realizing that your family needs you. They want you to be there with them in their difficult time. They use to hide their problems till now but now as you are old enough to handle stress, they expects you to solve their problems as they use to solve yours. And you are scared that how will you do that.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out!!!

Finally.. i have my Blog! :)

hey friends....
this is me... SIM! :D
always wondered how to create a blog.... i know its very easy.. but i was too lazy to find that out...:P.. today.. after going through a blog of a friend i decided to make one for myself too..:D....also the other reason is....shhh.....shh.... i hv loads of work to do.. and am confused how to go abt it... so i am just killing time and pretending to work just by sitting in front of my dear computer... ;) and tomorow when i will go to my class i will say that "i was working the whole day... but cudnt find the right info."...how ishmart i am...hehe...

so... finally after months of wondering...here i am with MY OWN BLOG !! yippeeee....
waise...there is one more reason of me hiding away from creating my blog other than me being laazzzzzzyyyyyyyy.... was that i am not a good writer... i am always short of words..(my friends wud laugh at me that if i am short of words... so why am i always seen talking..:P )... but seriously.... i cannot pen down my thoughts....i hv never ever wrote a diary....(the only diary i ever had.. used to be the school diary...jismein homework note karti thi.. and most of the time to vo bhi nahin..:P )... so ppl...be ready... fasten ur seat-belts.... u'll be getting some real bad stuff to read.. with loads of language mistakes...:D...
hmmm...so....bye for now... keep laughing...will write the next one real soon..! take care :)